W h y

Dear goodness please tell me that at least one person gives a shit because my MDD is hitting me really damn hard right now and all the depression and loneliness is all jumbled up inside and I'm not really happy... HHHHHH

Atm I just feel like no one really cares idk why all I can think of is someone going "Oh" and then moving on 

Ugh I feel like deleting my personal blog too because I gush about a fav character of mine and I really care about him like a fuckin asshole I am and just I feel like no one cares bout that either so I'm just "meh"

I want to delete it but I don't. Idk wtf to do right now. I'm very conflicted and loneliness is really getting to me right now sorry I know I'm an asshole for even bothering to bring the shit up 
I've been trying to stay happy and on top of everything but lately I've been crashing down just not openly until now

HHHHHHH